Archive for December, 2009

My Mind Is Mush

I sometimes run into the problem where I engulf myself in a cause so much that it is difficult for me to focus on anything else. Well, that is to say, my mind goes back to thinking about it often, if i am not busying myself with something. I’ve had a hard time the last week or so shifting modes in my mind to work on anything other than work related stuff, which is annoying and frustrating to say the least.

One thing that has helped is playing with my nieces and nephews. They keep me entertained and I don’t think about work stuff at all, it is nice. Unfortunatley, I don’t seem them very often. I am looking foward to when I have a wife and children of my own, so that I can spend time with them. Hopefully that day is not too far off. :)

I have been working on school as well, which has helped to some degree. The problem is that once I write my paper or something, I generally go back to thinking about work again.

When I really analyze the issue and am honest with myself, I guess it is mainly when I am bored I think about it. When I can hang out with friends or go see a movie, or heck, even go shopping, I usually will. I have just been putting myself into a position where I can’t roam around as freely as I used to, but that is only temporary.

Hopefully, in the next month or so my mind will stop being mush and I can start to focus on my books again.

I did start reading some fantasy books again, in hopes that it would help me change my train of thought back to that style of thinking. What I mean is that I have put my train of thought so far into reality, that it has been more difficult than it used to be for me to be creative in my story telling. That’s highly disappointing and I want to change that as soon as possible.

I enjoy telling a story that will enterain you, hold your attention and in some ways move you, creating some emotional response. I don’t feel like I can do that right now. At least, not today.