Finally, after quite a little dry spell a story came to my mind and was completed within the same day. I cannot even begin to explain how good it felt to write again. It’s been far too long and I must admit, I was concerned in my ability to write a work of fiction anymore. (I write a ton of real life stuff, letters, opinions, etc., but not much fiction as of late.)
I did it though. It was just as I remembered, my mind racing with ideas, my fingers banging against the keyboard as words formed to describe what I was imagining in my head. The ideas coming together faster than I could type, changing as the story progressed until I had a final ending. It felt good. Really good. I won’t go as far as saying it was better than sex, but it was quite fulfilling, like seeing an old friend you haven’t spoke with in ages and catching up.
It was certainly a part of me that had been missing for far too long. It had been years before now since I had finished a story. I have started a number of them, some I hope to continue to work on, others forever lost. One such story I began a few years ago and slowly was working on, but that was before I had my own laptop. I had to use my parents, as they generously lent it to me, until they needed it for playing movies for the nieces and nephews on a trip downstate.
Unfortunately, that was the end of the laptop and my story along with it because it literally caught on fire and they had to throw it out the window. That’s a little depressing, actually.
Writing for me is like having something extremely precious to you and all you want to do is cradle it and ensure it’s safety, but then when things like that happen, it’s just sad. Investing so much time and thought and yourself into something just to see it destroyed is really not a pleasant thing. I am sure you can imagine.
Nevertheless, I feel so much better and in many ways, much more complete now that my creative juices are flowing, my mind is bouncing around thinking of new stories already, preparing to write another take of life.
I’m debating if I am going to post the story on the blog or not because I think if I do it is considered published, which will make getting it actually published much, much more difficult. Then again, I don’t know if I am going to even submit it to get published, so I will think about it.
One thing is for certain, relatively soon, I’ll launch my podcasts again and one of my stories will be a part of that. I am just not sure which one yet. I might redo the original one I started that people seemed to enjoy, but I never put the final episode online for people to hear, so no one has access to that, or actually, any of it now.
I guess we’ll see soon!
